What's really bothering me? Still awake at 3am. Oh gosh...I did wrongly today.
Shouldn't have bother to keep in contact where I already decided 6mths ago when the day the relationship was ended and friendship is tore.

I think I am forcing myself too hard to forget while I may hurting people around me deeply. Forgetting, what will be inevitable, the long black aftermath of pain. This kind of forgetting does not erase memory, it lays the emotion surrounding the memory to rest.
It is indeed a process of learning requires not only hearing and applying but also forgetting and then remembering again.

It's hypocritally to continue as friends. Totally impossible! There are changes in each individual to a total different person of what we used to be.

PHYLLIS YEO, stop being wishy-washy.
Your BEST remedy is to stay away from them.